¿qué estamos esperando?

esperar.

esperar means to hope

it also means to wait.

how odd,

that to hope and to wait

are the same verb in Spanish.

I suppose it makes sense,

for you cannot hope if you don’t have time

to wait for something more,

something better.

but does that mean

that to find that something

hope must always be on the horizon

always out of reach?

not something you can touch or hold or own?

that it will never be attained?

Is that what our lives are built on?

crafted with the fragile bricks of hope

that the foundation of our futures

is ever fluid and shifting

and that we can only wait for a better reality?

is it wrong that I am tired of waiting?

tired of watching our world rot

our people erode

and our hope dwindle.

* * * *

hacer. 

it means to do

it also means to create

what does that mean, “to do?”

to act?

to move forward?

or to move at all?

is it taking the bricks of our foundation—our hope—

and propelling them through the air

crashing through the windows

of this broken home.

but what of creation?

to create,

to cease our waiting

and put our sweat and our blood to work

for the home we want to build together.

maybe I need to abandon my hope

maybe it is the only incentive I have

to start the work

because when the structure is rotting

and the roof is caving in

we cannot hope

it does not crush us on its way down.